well shayna didn't make the Allstar team and this is what we think about it!!! She did so well at tryouts, i'm really shocked that she didn't make it.

I never would have guessed that when I married this man 7 years ago that my life would turn out the way it has. What makes a person choose beer over his family? Was it me? Was it something that I did wrong, what is so great about beer that you are willing to throw you whole family away just to keep drinking? It's been 5 months since the girls and I left, he hasn't even tried to stop drinking. It breaks my heart that this is happening. When I left I really thought it would be the wake up call that he needed but I guess I was once again wrong. I really thought when I married Evan that he was the man that would be a great husband and father. He was so different then, or maybe I was just blinded by love. Now it's come down to I've scheduled the meeting with the attorney so I guess there is no going back. Maybe I just don't try hard enough to make things work. Am I wrong in wanting my husband to be a contributing part of the family, am I wrong because I want him to show up for both girls activities not just Ava's? Am I asking too much? All I wanted was to be a family. I know that some people can rise above their addictions and do so much better so why can't he? Why is he ok with being like this? Why doesn't he want to be the father that Ava needs? I'm so angry and hurt, will that ever change? I've never truly felt this much pain before, he continues to hurt me more and more each day. So many questions and no answers......

Shayna's regular season for softball ended last night, they lost but they should have won, the game was called because of the storm. Shayna did a great job this year, she's becoming a better player every year. She tried out for the Allstar team so keep your fingers crossed that she makes the team!!!

Ava's tball season is over:( she did an awesome job this year i'm so proud of her. she loves to play so i'm guessing she will follow in sissy's footsteps and be a softball player. she got to play in the allstar game on Saturday and she did excellent!

Ava and I were invited down to Lake Monroe for Memorial Day weekend by our friends Mark and Kristen. We had a great time, the boats were awesome and it was great having a really nice camper to sleep in! Makes me want a boat and a camper...too bad that's never gonna happen. Ava was fearless, she went tubing and enjoyed every second of it!