tonight is the first night of family counseling...i am hopeful that it will help us. last week, shayna told me that she hates her life and on sunday ava told me that she doesn't love me and wants to know when we are moving back to daddy's. let me just tell you if your kids have ever said anything like that to you, then you know excatly how i feel. it hurts more than words can explain. i know ava is only 4and i know that she does love me so that wasn't so bad but when shayna said "i hate my life" that one hurt. so wish us luck that counseling will help us get through this and we can all start liking our lives again. i am personally struggling with a lot of issues, i feel like i am trying to help everyone else get through this but that doesn't really leave me anytime to help myself get through this. it's a struggle everyday. but i am hopeful that as each day passes that it will get easier. it will be much better when i get my vehicle situation worked out. it's still going to be another week before i get the truck back. i really messed it up...uncle keith had to replace the entire front suspension, 2 wheels, the passenger side front door, the front bumper, the back bumper and the running board...whew..what a mess.